This is just something Personal
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Something Personal
--->Ice cold hands...pressed on my back....sending my body through chills....its truly amazing how you make me feel...feeling like something out of a Love Story...just me and you and you me...If I am me then who are you...But I know who you are I've seen you in my dreams...my dreams that fade away in a second....holding onto that second, makes me cherish the time I have with you and me...just me and you...I wait for the moments I have to lay with you...and me wanting the chance to be with you...and me hoping that you are who you claim you are....too wonderful for the thoughts that I have of you...and me...silent...still in my tracks facing you...and me looking into your eyes...as if I've never seen you before...As if you've never seen me before...you saying my beauty is deadly, me saying your everything is captivating my heart...You not letting me go, me not letting go of you...and me in Love with the thought of you...being with you...because...it was only...all...just a dream....that came true
...Patience is a Virtue...
A Breathtaking reflection of Gods heart
he sweeps me off my feet
Because I'm his Crystalized Princess
he's my smile...
he's my laugh...
he makes me feel on cloud 9
he's my every thought...
he's my every desire...
when I feel his enchanting touch
how my body shivers, because of the
excitment within me
he's the one thing I've been waiting for
even though I need so much more
from him, he gives me the urge to...
the urge to let him know my
every dream, wish, hopes, purpose
This God sent man, with a pure heart
pure mind...body
the feel of him is a blessing from God
his kiss...the soft feel of his
hug is a blessing...
to hear his beautiful soothing voice...heartbeat
when we exchange our everlasting vows...
leaving to go to a far away place
pacing...heavy breathing
waiting to exhale...experience something new
to explore eachother...for the first time...finally...
feeling you...him...
the Holy seduction of something
so alluring to the inside of me...
once again he makes me feel on cloud 9...
he makes me feel irreplaceable it's unexplainable...
he makes me feel like a natural beauty
like an amazing Goddess...
a Jewel in Gods eyes...a Jewel in his crown...
a Crystalized Queen...
he makes me feel...REAL...
Still in Love with God always and forever
there's just one thing...
curious to see who "he" really is
I'm already in Love with him
he's a breathtaking Reflection Of Gods Heart...
yet I must be patient...patience is a virtue...
isn't it...
he sweeps me off my feet
Because I'm his Crystalized Princess
he's my smile...
he's my laugh...
he makes me feel on cloud 9
he's my every thought...
he's my every desire...
when I feel his enchanting touch
how my body shivers, because of the
excitment within me
he's the one thing I've been waiting for
even though I need so much more
from him, he gives me the urge to...
the urge to let him know my
every dream, wish, hopes, purpose
This God sent man, with a pure heart
pure mind...body
the feel of him is a blessing from God
his kiss...the soft feel of his
hug is a blessing...
to hear his beautiful soothing voice...heartbeat
when we exchange our everlasting vows...
leaving to go to a far away place
pacing...heavy breathing
waiting to exhale...experience something new
to explore eachother...for the first time...finally...
feeling you...him...
the Holy seduction of something
so alluring to the inside of me...
once again he makes me feel on cloud 9...
he makes me feel irreplaceable it's unexplainable...
he makes me feel like a natural beauty
like an amazing Goddess...
a Jewel in Gods eyes...a Jewel in his crown...
a Crystalized Queen...
he makes me feel...REAL...
Still in Love with God always and forever
there's just one thing...
curious to see who "he" really is
I'm already in Love with him
he's a breathtaking Reflection Of Gods Heart...
yet I must be patient...patience is a virtue...
isn't it...
Chrisette Michele! YAY!
All songs by Chrisette Michele. I added in some lil stuff, Im singing these songs for an audition, for this play I want to be in =) Its something like a musical, oh and for an audition =)
I'm just On my own, can't let you in now, gotta be alone, on my own, gotta fight this battle, alone, on my own. I really can't let you in now, nooo, on my own just gotta be Gotta be alone now, Ohhh On my own.
Yet they playin’ my song, Every time that I hear it,My heart wants to jump out of my chest, In such a rush, The playin’ our song, And my whole body feels it, It’s cryin’ out baby, baby, baby, baby, baby! They playin’ my song. [x2]
But baby, All I ever think about is you. And I guess I never really ever loved no one. All I ever think about you. From the rising of the moon to the setting of the sun. All I ever think about is you. I'm really scared lying here about to fall. Cuz all i ever think about is you. I'm just tryna get back and I wanna get back to you. Cuz all I ever think about is you.
I'm just On my own, can't let you in now, gotta be alone, on my own, gotta fight this battle, alone, on my own. I really can't let you in now, nooo, on my own just gotta be Gotta be alone now, Ohhh On my own.
Yet they playin’ my song, Every time that I hear it,My heart wants to jump out of my chest, In such a rush, The playin’ our song, And my whole body feels it, It’s cryin’ out baby, baby, baby, baby, baby! They playin’ my song. [x2]
But baby, All I ever think about is you. And I guess I never really ever loved no one. All I ever think about you. From the rising of the moon to the setting of the sun. All I ever think about is you. I'm really scared lying here about to fall. Cuz all i ever think about is you. I'm just tryna get back and I wanna get back to you. Cuz all I ever think about is you.
53 pt2 :)
1. When I'm nervous about anything I ask a lot of questions.
2. I'm terribly scared of Chuck E Cheese and Barney.
3. I take 3 needles a day for my Diabetes.
4. I think my History prof is a tad cute.
5. I love hearts, keys, lockets...anything rustic, that looks aged.
6. I love edible scents. I have V.Secret sprays that smell like strawberries, vanilla cupcakes...Sour apple Jolly Rancher pops [lol]
7. I think started to "wear my heart on my sleeve" again...without realizing it...[Hard to explain]...
8. Everyday I make a decision that can possibly change my life, forever...[I'll explain later...maybe]
9. I LOVE Seventeen and teen Vogue magazine.
10. Spanish is a sexy language.
11. I use to want a man that could sing to me, dance with me, and just be silly with me. That hasn't changed.
12. My ex boyfriend is one of my best friends & I've known my female best friend Ashley since she was in the womb. Lol. My mother says otherwise.
13. I'm more like my parents then I thought.
14. I've been robbed before. On the mean streets of DC. My purse got stolen and this man ran after dude, and got it back for me. Dude took my diabetes meter. Retard.
15. My perfect date is at my favorite place. As simple as a picnic. Near the lake. Just me & You. [Not literally you....lol]
16. I listen to music everyday. Ask my sister I'm sure she hears it! I can play one song over and over again and it won't affect me. Ill still love it at the end of the next day.
17. I use to be boy crazy, when I was younger, only few people know why.
18. My first kiss was when I was 13 over spring break with my next door neighbor...lol
19. I'm a virgin =)
20. I wear a retainer...well my doctor calls it Invisline [Might have spelled that wrong] Lol
21. I came to Zion when I was 12 years old and hated it til I was 15.
22. I've been dancing since I was 6yrs old. Acting since I was...wow....idk...singing
since I was like 7 or 8. I'm in LOVE with the performing arts.
23. They spelled my name wrong on my diploma. "Crystal Michelle Chiles" yeah that isn't me...ugh...I'm Crystal Michele Chiles.
24. I don't really know how to apply make-up. I look beautiful without it. But I can put on mascara and lip gloss anyday.
25. I worked at PGCC.
26. I'm rather clumsy, which is why sometimes I look down while walking. I now look up while walking. I'm confident that I won't fall and even if I do. Ill still have a smile one =)
27. I got picked up by brats when I was in elementary school and 7th grade...most of the brats are on my facebook now. How funny.
28. 2008 was the worst for me. SO MUCH happened in my personal life...you don't even know.
29. I don't know how most girls are, I just know how I am & how great & wonderful I am. I'm content with my singleness when it's time I'll know & make him VERY happy. I can change his life, I can make him happy. I'll make his puzzle complete. [Oh boy that was deep...lol]
30. I'm big on LOVE. [Kind of hard to explain]
31. I hit my older brother Chris with a seat belt in his face [I don't remember this accident]
32. Crowing up, I use to dislike my older brother too, til he moved out, then I missed the heck outta him. LOVE you brotha.
33. I love Janet Jackson. Prince is gay.
34. Never seen Color Purple. Saw the movie Prince did...and it completely sucked.
35. I love nice teeth. You know nice and straight...pearly white teeth.
36. Sometimes I think...that "certain" people think I'm annoying. Yet they continue to talk to me lol...
37. I love Wendy's chicken nuggets [fries are tasteless], Chick fil a I love their everything. mcdonalds...their fries...
38. I love to eat toast and jelly with bacon in the middle...with water on the side.
39. I'm trying to go after what I want. But not everything I want is technically good for me.
40. I feel like I have fat arms....ugh...Lol...
41. When I was younger...from the ages of...8 to 17...I thought I wasn't pretty at all. I thought the reason why guys would talk to me was for my behind...which maybe true who knows. But I know I'm to die for now. =) I've reached my inner sexy! You better believe it!
42. I hate the color pink. But I love Victoria's Secret PINK line. Lol.
43. Wants to ask every single person I know, "What do you see when you look at me?..."
44. I LOVE Pumps.
45. I think anything that has to do with Harry Potter is terribly wack.
46. I like simple things. I mean big outrageous things are nice don't ge me wrong. But something simple puts a smile on my face.
47. I believe that Love is a decision followed by an action, that reveals the Character of God.
I believe God is Love. But, I don't think anyone fully understands what Love is...I think once you get to know him you'll start to understand more and more each day.
48. I hate [ okay well--->STRONGLY dislikle] Flowers High School...with a passion...Lol...
49. I know it may appear that I'm always on facebook...but I'm not I just hardly ever log off.
50. I want kids when I get older. My mother is a twin, and we have some in our family...so one of my brothers and sisters or me should have twins....hmmm triplets?...
51. I have random people with my exact name "Crystal Chiles" on my page...lol I think it's cool we allll might be related, and a long lost brother by the name of Nick Chiles. He's too cool. Hey Nick!
52. I think I kind of currently like someone.
53. Last but not least...I'm worth the Wait♥
53 :)
1. I hate school. With a passion---. But I want to be a teacher??...lol
2. I always get the same thing from McDonalds..."McDouble and fries with 2 packs of bbq sauce"
3. People who text back one word answers/responses....that annoys the OMG outta me.
4. I'm attracted to pretty boys. But looks with me get you nowhere
5. I love my job. Not sure why...but I do. I work in retail btw.
6. I get nervous around people I like or have a crush on.
7. Just discovered that I blush and smile a lot around people I like or have a crush on.
8. I LOVE Quaker Caramel Corn Rice cakes
9. Pizza Hut and Ledos are my all time favorite pizza places
10. I LOVE The Hills/The City/Daddy's Girls/Gossip Girl/The Game....like I really do.
11. I don't watch TV like that...I usually watch the episodes online...
12. I hate roses, but like blue roses...I know i know I contradicted myself...lol
13. LOVE bright and very DARK nail polish
14. Addicted to oatmeal creme pies and banana moon pies.
15. Doesn't like to be taken advantage of.
16. I want to move to LA or New York.
17. LOVE Andy Warhol totes and paintings.
18. I have 2 best friends...I think...and One EX best friend.
19. I LOVE to video chat on my Ichat =) It's fun.
20. Addicted to texting....Ask my girls I'm focused when I text.
21. I LOVE studs. They're rather sexy. lol...let me clarify Stud earrings that is.
22. I look at Disney when I'm bored.
23. I hate BET...waste of a channel.
24. I now like small/medium dogs. NO LARGE DOGS. UGH! My cousins puppy is adorable. Shout out to Piper Swann♥
25. All I really---->mostly drink is water =)
26. My major is English Education. I desire to be a HS Teacher.
27. Ignorance amuses me.
28. I had braces for a total of 5 years. 8th-10th and after 12th- Oct 08....lol...
29. HATE Sweet and Sour sauce. Yup I do.
30. I took a class called Human Sexuality at PG...OMG...Just never take that class.......NEVER...
31. I also want to work with fashion...or get an internship at Seventeen/Teen Vogue magazine....another DREAM come true.
Some Extras...lol...
32. Guys who talk more then I do...omg WHY!?...completely annoying. lol
33. I make Jewelry.
34. I write EVERYday.
34. Dance all the time LET ME REPEAT dance and sing ALL THE TIME around my house at work at school.
35. LOVE going to different plays =)
36. I've been in eight plays.
37. I sing in my Youth Churches praise and worship team Vertical
38. I have 2 brothers and a sister...
39. I'm a leo.
40. HATE shopping unless I really need to go shopping, then I love it, but hate the lines. lol
41. There's this flower and it's called "Forget-Me-Not" I love it.
42. I always played with barbies as a child and dollhouses...I lived the life. lol
43. Became Diabetic at the age of 6years old.
44. I promise you in my baby picture I was holding up a gang sign.
45. I'm fragile.
46. LOVE Zac Efron.
47. In need of my own tv show.
48. I'm always logged on facebook, half the time I'm never on. lol
49. As a child I was afraid of cotton [LONG Story]
50. I have a MAC and LOVVVVE The Sims 2!!!!!! Like I adore it!!!! LOL!!!!!!!!
51. OH how could I forget I sent a video in to be on true life/MADE/The Real World...lol...OH YEAH =)
52. I believe cheap gifts should not be given on Christmas or my birthday. Just terrible.
53. You are the people you hang out with...so if the people are ignorant and nasty. PLEASE get new friends...lol
THe Anatomy of Character...
The condition and content of our heart reveals our Character. PROVERBS 4:23 (NIV) Our character determines our future and success more than anything else. Lord show me...me...show me the condition of my heart. Make my heart better...put content on my heart that will strengthen my character. Do open heart surgery on MY HEART. HELP ME build my character!
NOTHING
I take nothing but photos, leave nothing but footsteps, and kill nothing but time...because it's my life remember that when you talk about it. I won't let myself be limited by ANYONE'S labels.
-Crystal Michele ♥
TO BE CONTINUED..
-Crystal Michele ♥
TO BE CONTINUED..
in the end
in the end.
are you really going to still be there within my life.
or are you just a phase...are you just a season.
I realize not everyone will remain in your life til the end...but will you.
Do you think you'll still be
hanging with me...
laughing with me...
crying with me...
just being there....will you even be there...in the end.
Like I've seriously been thinking about this.
I've been meeting LOTS of new people who just seem better then the old.
Yet the old I don't want to lose them.
I've learned something from everyone whose come in and out of my life.
Good or bad, through good times and bad times...
I end up learning...gaining...reali
zing that EVERYONE who comes in my life...is here for a reason.
Not sure what exactly but I know they're here for a particular reason.
in the end will I ever find out why....
or will it always remain a mystery why certain people are in my life.
but in the end......
DO U NEED A DEMONSTRATION?
"SEX IS A SENSATION CAUSED BY TEMPTATION WHEN A GUY STICKS HIS LOCATION INTO A GIRLS DESTINATION TO INCREASE POPULATION FOR THE NEXT GENERATION YOU GET MY EXPLANATION OR DO U NEED A DEMONSTRATION?"
Lost
I think I've lost touch with who my REAL friends are........
and I just don't know what to do, about it.
I think I've lost touch with some of the closet friends that I have...
and I just don't know what to do about it...
I don't even know who some of my real, genuine friends are....
and I really don't know what to do about it.....
What do you do, when you don't know what to do....?
Me.
Dance+singing+acting+Life=
I'm Diabetic and it's alright.
I'm clumsy..today I ran into my headboard thingy ma bob and broke my window...but it's alright.
I'm Creatively Charged.
I'm hyper....can be a lil crazy, weird...different at times...but it's alright!!!!!
I hate diet sodas...except diet sunkist/diet mountain dew...lol)
I love H20.
I have a sprint phone....psh...but it's alright.
I don't wear watches.
I love sunglasses.
I have a dictionary for children in my room...not sure why but it's alright!
I have a stuffed rabbit by the name of BOBO...I'm not ashamed.
I'm emotionally allergic to dogs...don't ask...hehe.
I'm addicted to purses & Hersheys cookies and cream bar.
My best friends are Ashley Nicole Morse (my sister) & Christopher Warren Hill ( Even though...I hate you-I fight with you because I love you-DUH!)
My role models in life are my older brother Chris Chiles & and my Grandmother (Love Her♥)
I love my youth Pastor/father figure-GO PJ!!!
Believe it or not I love my mom and dad. Even though we hardly ever see eye to eye...what can I say she's my mom...he's my dad.
Wouldn't be here without them.
I love it when my cousin does my hair. She's so great!
I'm my own fashionista.
I LOVE full house.
I wish I was a twin...lol...could anyone handle two of me?...DON'T answer that.
I was once insecure about myself...not anymore...I LOVE me. Thanks God! {Wish I could tag you} =)
I love the fact that when I was born I looked Chinese. Seriously.
I love the fact that no one ever knows what I'm thinking. (Except Jesus)
I make Jewelry. Thanks to my sister.
I'm stubborn, strong-willed. Hey! I'm working on it.
I hate the color pink.
But I love PINK (V.Secret that is)
I have braces. SO WACK. But I look good.
I miss my smile. You know w/out the braces.
I graduated. Went to college. Work full time. Trying to get back into college.
I have an alter ego...Jordan Wainwright hehe (woohoo The Assignment)
I love diamond studs.
I love silver and gold.
I'm only suppose to wear REAL jewelry. Dermatologist said so.
I'm allergic to stuff.
I truly SING and DANCE all day.
I'm in LOVE with Strawberries.
My future kids name will be (my husband {{whoever that may be}} can pick uh...one name! lol) Chole Payton (?) means Victory of the people, Christian Malik (?) means Follower of Christ, Destiny Jordin (?) means destiny....lol, and Carina Nacole (?) means Beloved, and last but not least Carson Hakeem (?) means...well the first name means nothing lol...but the middle means wise/insightful
When you get bored...think of baby names lol...anywho...
I'm a leo (August 7th-Best day ever.)
Last but not least...
I am Crystal Michele Chiles.
and no one else.
I am ME.
Crystal=Clear and Understanding
Michele=Who is like God
Chiles=uh...yeah my mom said she had no control over that. hehe
This is ME.
I'm Diabetic and it's alright.
I'm clumsy..today I ran into my headboard thingy ma bob and broke my window...but it's alright.
I'm Creatively Charged.
I'm hyper....can be a lil crazy, weird...different at times...but it's alright!!!!!
I hate diet sodas...except diet sunkist/diet mountain dew...lol)
I love H20.
I have a sprint phone....psh...but it's alright.
I don't wear watches.
I love sunglasses.
I have a dictionary for children in my room...not sure why but it's alright!
I have a stuffed rabbit by the name of BOBO...I'm not ashamed.
I'm emotionally allergic to dogs...don't ask...hehe.
I'm addicted to purses & Hersheys cookies and cream bar.
My best friends are Ashley Nicole Morse (my sister) & Christopher Warren Hill ( Even though...I hate you-I fight with you because I love you-DUH!)
My role models in life are my older brother Chris Chiles & and my Grandmother (Love Her♥)
I love my youth Pastor/father figure-GO PJ!!!
Believe it or not I love my mom and dad. Even though we hardly ever see eye to eye...what can I say she's my mom...he's my dad.
Wouldn't be here without them.
I love it when my cousin does my hair. She's so great!
I'm my own fashionista.
I LOVE full house.
I wish I was a twin...lol...could anyone handle two of me?...DON'T answer that.
I was once insecure about myself...not anymore...I LOVE me. Thanks God! {Wish I could tag you} =)
I love the fact that when I was born I looked Chinese. Seriously.
I love the fact that no one ever knows what I'm thinking. (Except Jesus)
I make Jewelry. Thanks to my sister.
I'm stubborn, strong-willed. Hey! I'm working on it.
I hate the color pink.
But I love PINK (V.Secret that is)
I have braces. SO WACK. But I look good.
I miss my smile. You know w/out the braces.
I graduated. Went to college. Work full time. Trying to get back into college.
I have an alter ego...Jordan Wainwright hehe (woohoo The Assignment)
I love diamond studs.
I love silver and gold.
I'm only suppose to wear REAL jewelry. Dermatologist said so.
I'm allergic to stuff.
I truly SING and DANCE all day.
I'm in LOVE with Strawberries.
My future kids name will be (my husband {{whoever that may be}} can pick uh...one name! lol) Chole Payton (?) means Victory of the people, Christian Malik (?) means Follower of Christ, Destiny Jordin (?) means destiny....lol, and Carina Nacole (?) means Beloved, and last but not least Carson Hakeem (?) means...well the first name means nothing lol...but the middle means wise/insightful
When you get bored...think of baby names lol...anywho...
I'm a leo (August 7th-Best day ever.)
Last but not least...
I am Crystal Michele Chiles.
and no one else.
I am ME.
Crystal=Clear and Understanding
Michele=Who is like God
Chiles=uh...yeah my mom said she had no control over that. hehe
This is ME.
If you only knew--- I love you
I'm not religious...I simply just have a relationship.
The best relationship I've ever been in, he's kept me...held me without even touching me....It's TRUE love, pure love, everlasting LOVE...what more could I ask for.
I owe him everything.
Thank You for my voice. (alto's ROCK)
Thank You for my ability to move...just for you. (dancing)
Thank You for my ability to be someone else other then myself. (acting)
You've helped me LOVE the person in the mirror. (Acceptance)
But yet I need to do better.
I take so much for granted.
But yet I have A LOT of work to do.
He's perfect there's no one like him.
P.S. I LOVE you.
TAKE it ALL...PLEASE♥
Take control of me...my life is yours to KEEP!
Forever and ever and ever and ever
Heal me with your touch
I want to reflect your LOVE
Forever and ever and ever and ever
Worthy is the lamb
I GIve you ALL I have....
YOUR so AMAZING.
I'm so passionate about you.
The thought of you brightens up my day...
I LOVE YOU.
~Crystal Michele Chiles♥
Take control of me...my life is yours to KEEP!
Forever and ever and ever and ever
Heal me with your touch
I want to reflect your LOVE
Forever and ever and ever and ever
Worthy is the lamb
I GIve you ALL I have....
YOUR so AMAZING.
I'm so passionate about you.
The thought of you brightens up my day...
I LOVE YOU.
~Crystal Michele Chiles♥
...Content...?
UH...Why me....
jealous...me...why...me...
resentment....me
i can't believe it...
thinking about you....ummm...
when u don't think of ME...
WHY me....
can't stand the feeling of not knowing how you feel...
when there once was a time i knew everything about you...
why you....
why you moved on with your life...why me...why am i still hooked on something that will never be...
never say never....but....idk...
idk anymore.....
stable...content...ok.....
...uh....
i don't even know if I'm making sense anymore......
wow...i was reading something...and I guess this is true in some cases....
"Falling in love with someone isn't always going to be easy... Anger... tears... laughter.. It's when you want to be together despite it all"...
"Beautiful"
I am perfection in the world.
I am graceful and have a tendency to be undeniably attractive, whether physically or intellectually.
I am radiant and everyone knows it from the minute they meet me.
I am Worth more then YOU could ever IMAGINE♥
I am Crystal Michele....
Oh how things change....and or SEEM to change...
Have you ever felt as if your losing tight bonds within friendships....not because of drama or anything like that...But because things have just simply changed....like you don't have anything to talk about anymore...or even before when you had NOTHING to talk about it was just great to hang with then regardless...But now it feels uncomfortable because it feels like you don't have much in common anymore....
I mean is it because I'm in college now...no longer in high school...I moved on to bigger and better things in my own personal life....I mean I know this is the time to make NEW friends...relationships...
and what not....BUT what about the old relationships...that seem to be in the same place they we're...just a few months ago....
It seems like I'm so out of the box....sometimes I forget that my friends have friends....But it also feels like certain friendships are drifting away...like we just don't have things in common anymore...
I'm not saying I'm feeling like this with all my friends...just a few.......REAL ones...GOOD ones...GENUINE ones....with a PURE, LOVING HEART!!!.....
Why do "things" have to..............CHANGE...O
R SEEM to change.....
I don't know is it me...
Praise You in this Storm
Speak now to your storms and say, "Peace! Be still!" The winds of adversity have blown, and this tornado effect has tried to keep you in a tail spin. But now, beloved, arise and speak to the wind. Speak to the storms that seem to prevail. Then, quiet the storms of your own heart and be at peace. Stop striving and begin to live by the strength of My grace, says the Lord.
Isaiah 26:3 You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You.
"You"
Needing someone who knows me better then i know myself
Needing someone to give me descending love
Needing the warmth and acceptance in your voive
Having your comforting words be enveloped around my damaged heart
so that I will feel whole again♥
Love descended upon me
I need his soul to captivate my mind, heart...and body
when the day comes when our paths cross
maybe this someone has already passed by...
How we wandered through our seperate lives
trying to make the wrong people do right
Especially me surviving the pain of love lost
Love Descended upon me
oh so gracefully
Needing that someone to have an intimate connection
so that he may get the key to my heart
so that I may be able to place my Treasure inside of his
I need whoever this someone is to know that
I truly am worth more then you could ever imagine...
I promise to be...and always be a breathtaking reflection of Gods heart
Just the way i am a Jewel In Gods eye
I desire to be a Jewel in your eyes also
Finally...LOVE. whose face I never knew...
Descended upon me in the form of "You"
Needing someone to give me descending love
Needing the warmth and acceptance in your voive
Having your comforting words be enveloped around my damaged heart
so that I will feel whole again♥
Love descended upon me
I need his soul to captivate my mind, heart...and body
when the day comes when our paths cross
maybe this someone has already passed by...
How we wandered through our seperate lives
trying to make the wrong people do right
Especially me surviving the pain of love lost
Love Descended upon me
oh so gracefully
Needing that someone to have an intimate connection
so that he may get the key to my heart
so that I may be able to place my Treasure inside of his
I need whoever this someone is to know that
I truly am worth more then you could ever imagine...
I promise to be...and always be a breathtaking reflection of Gods heart
Just the way i am a Jewel In Gods eye
I desire to be a Jewel in your eyes also
Finally...LOVE. whose face I never knew...
Descended upon me in the form of "You"
My Thoughts...
Feeling so many different things right now
at the moment im not sure what to think
what to do or even to believe it or not what to say
Have you ever wanted something so bad
knowing that your close to getting it
but yet everything feels so close to an end
because of a small but yet so huge issue
that you absolutely have no control of
but yet you still want that certain thing
so bad not exactly knowing why...
but you just do...
Have you ever wanted to give up someone
because of a situation that you suppose
wasnt so much of a heart break, but yet
broke into several different parts...
Have you ever felt as though you were
involved with someone...
but yet you really werent sure if you were involved or not
but your not really sure if that person
is ready to even think of getting into something new...something serious...
or is it me...am I moving to fast...to slow...or exactly at the right pace...
feeling as though im in a race against myself...
that, not really making since at all
in my mind
just speaking of that...him...lately always being on my mind
his smell...touch...his hug...his angelic kiss against my oh so lovely lips
i want him now next to me
so that we can stay close
so that he can grow a sincere true connection
to my God fearing heart
never feeling this way before...
there's just something about him...not sure what it is...
it feels so right...but...
am i moving to fast...
at the moment im not sure what to think
what to do or even to believe it or not what to say
Have you ever wanted something so bad
knowing that your close to getting it
but yet everything feels so close to an end
because of a small but yet so huge issue
that you absolutely have no control of
but yet you still want that certain thing
so bad not exactly knowing why...
but you just do...
Have you ever wanted to give up someone
because of a situation that you suppose
wasnt so much of a heart break, but yet
broke into several different parts...
Have you ever felt as though you were
involved with someone...
but yet you really werent sure if you were involved or not
but your not really sure if that person
is ready to even think of getting into something new...something serious...
or is it me...am I moving to fast...to slow...or exactly at the right pace...
feeling as though im in a race against myself...
that, not really making since at all
in my mind
just speaking of that...him...lately always being on my mind
his smell...touch...his hug...his angelic kiss against my oh so lovely lips
i want him now next to me
so that we can stay close
so that he can grow a sincere true connection
to my God fearing heart
never feeling this way before...
there's just something about him...not sure what it is...
it feels so right...but...
am i moving to fast...
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Refreshed
A refreshing love thats so true
A refreshing love...Oh you already know it's you
the only one who holds me in your arms...
I want you to take me to that place
to that secret place
where I can be with you
and you can make me like you
wrap me in your arms...
looking to you when in doubt...in pain
needing your unconditional...everlasting...unending
...love...
Why should I look to for others fulfillment
then I'll never be truly fulfilled myself...
I have no desire...to be bitter...
I must be a Captivating voice of a young woman
who refuses to live in sorrow...bitterness...fear...
to live in foolish romantic dreams...
I have to stand to be a FIERCE independent women...
I need to evolve in a selfhood for myself...
going through my individual trials...tribulations...
there being a PURPOSE for it all...
I am Irreplaceable
I am Indescribable
I am Unexplainable
there's one and only person that
matters to me the most...
I need a refreshing love that's so true
a refreshing love from...
Oh God you already know it's you...
A refreshing love...Oh you already know it's you
the only one who holds me in your arms...
I want you to take me to that place
to that secret place
where I can be with you
and you can make me like you
wrap me in your arms...
looking to you when in doubt...in pain
needing your unconditional...everlastin
...love...
Why should I look to for others fulfillment
then I'll never be truly fulfilled myself...
I have no desire...to be bitter...
I must be a Captivating voice of a young woman
who refuses to live in sorrow...bitterness...fear
to live in foolish romantic dreams...
I have to stand to be a FIERCE independent women...
I need to evolve in a selfhood for myself...
going through my individual trials...tribulations...
there being a PURPOSE for it all...
I am Irreplaceable
I am Indescribable
I am Unexplainable
there's one and only person that
matters to me the most...
I need a refreshing love that's so true
a refreshing love from...
Oh God you already know it's you...
Just Take Me...As I Am...
Just take me...as i am...
or have nothing at all
Just take me...as i am...
or i'll just fall...i hate being held up
against the wall...feeling inferior
to the things in my life...
Just take me...as i am...
forget about how my body looks...being
highly blessed in all the right places...
its not about all that...
what about who i am...my personality...
the small things that matter...like...
my eyes, my smile, my lips...so...
Just take me...as i am...
with me being goofy, loud, quiet, funny...
with my downfalls, my struggles, my happiness,
my strength...so...please...
Just Take Me...As I Am...
Written by Crystal Michele...01/19/2007
or have nothing at all
Just take me...as i am...
or i'll just fall...i hate being held up
against the wall...feeling inferior
to the things in my life...
Just take me...as i am...
forget about how my body looks...being
highly blessed in all the right places...
its not about all that...
what about who i am...my personality...
the small things that matter...like...
my eyes, my smile, my lips...so...
Just take me...as i am...
with me being goofy, loud, quiet, funny...
with my downfalls, my struggles, my happiness,
my strength...so...please...
Just Take Me...As I Am...
Written by Crystal Michele...01/19/2007
Just so you can save me
Who am i...what do i stand for
im in need of more credit then you take me for
being in a poor state right now
how can i stand still...knowing whats goin on
right in front of my eyes...why...
one question...one word...answer for me
please...why...did i stand myself up to be a fool
to be mindless, lifeless...for this being to be heartless...
heartless in the fact of being unaware of the
people and things surrounded around him...
when will this end...when will this all end...
im at a state right now...where i cant stand
alone...all on my own...like this...somethings
wrong...with me...i cant let this go...
why...not sure...i need someone who can
be there for me as a friend, a sister, a brother
because im going through some...right now...
i need you...
Just So You Can Save Me...
im in need of more credit then you take me for
being in a poor state right now
how can i stand still...knowing whats goin on
right in front of my eyes...why...
one question...one word...answer for me
please...why...did i stand myself up to be a fool
to be mindless, lifeless...for this being to be heartless...
heartless in the fact of being unaware of the
people and things surrounded around him...
when will this end...when will this all end...
im at a state right now...where i cant stand
alone...all on my own...like this...somethings
wrong...with me...i cant let this go...
why...not sure...i need someone who can
be there for me as a friend, a sister, a brother
because im going through some...right now...
i need you...
Just So You Can Save Me...
Something New
heres something new
that ive been going through
listen step into my shoes...size 10 to be exact
no wait a minute stay focused...alright
so here it goes
theres this guy that i knew
that ive known for a minute
he had my heart then
and yet got seperated
some people came and went, spent my time
it was wasted...letting myself go...oh no...
needed something new...so new things came and
went...and yet...gave my herat away...in a quick sec...
and yet...i needed something new...so then soon...later in my life
he comes...and does something amazing to my lips...just once...
fooled me...fooled me bad...and started going at it...in a month...later with somewho i happenED to know...but rather not know anymore...for the moment at least...anymore...i need something new...THANK GOD...
i found it...Something New...
that ive been going through
listen step into my shoes...size 10 to be exact
no wait a minute stay focused...alright
so here it goes
theres this guy that i knew
that ive known for a minute
he had my heart then
and yet got seperated
some people came and went, spent my time
it was wasted...letting myself go...oh no...
needed something new...so new things came and
went...and yet...gave my herat away...in a quick sec...
and yet...i needed something new...so then soon...later in my life
he comes...and does something amazing to my lips...just once...
fooled me...fooled me bad...and started going at it...in a month...later with somewho i happenED to know...but rather not know anymore...for the moment at least...anymore...i need something new...THANK GOD...
i found it...Something New...
Please let me cry...
Let me cry
the tears im holding in
to cover up how im feeling
not to mess things up
i feel corrupt
as if im a stupid girl
one who let her emotions get ahead of her
running over me...over and over...again...why...
Just PLEASE let me cry
take all this pain out of me
please can i step back into reality
like the song says,
i do got this icebox where my heart use to be
crazy huh...i feel inferior to love
surrounded around me...how can this be
that we...well i can feel this way
but yet he did what he did...probably doesnt
matter...probably doesnt even remember...so
sad on my behalf...to no longer feel anything
but yet, be heartbroken...just...
Please let me cry...
the tears im holding in
to cover up how im feeling
not to mess things up
i feel corrupt
as if im a stupid girl
one who let her emotions get ahead of her
running over me...over and over...again...why...
Just PLEASE let me cry
take all this pain out of me
please can i step back into reality
like the song says,
i do got this icebox where my heart use to be
crazy huh...i feel inferior to love
surrounded around me...how can this be
that we...well i can feel this way
but yet he did what he did...probably doesnt
matter...probably doesnt even remember...so
sad on my behalf...to no longer feel anything
but yet, be heartbroken...just...
Please let me cry...
Letting it Out!!!
A smile takes but a moment, but its effects sometimes last forever!!!!!!
Lord,give me an open heart to find you everywhere, to glimpse the heaven enfolded in a bud, and to experience eternity in the smallest act of love. Everyday holds the possibilty of a miracle. Thank you, Lord, for this chance to stretch some more in your direction~to trust you whern I cannot understand. Love has its source in God, for love is the very essence of his being. There's a time for risky love. There's a time for extravagant gestures. There's a time to pour affections on one you love. And when the time comes...seize it, don't miss it!
P.S.
Don't be weary in prayer, keep at it; watch for God's answers and remember to be thankful when they come! (Colossians 4:2)
Lord,give me an open heart to find you everywhere, to glimpse the heaven enfolded in a bud, and to experience eternity in the smallest act of love. Everyday holds the possibilty of a miracle. Thank you, Lord, for this chance to stretch some more in your direction~to trust you whern I cannot understand. Love has its source in God, for love is the very essence of his being. There's a time for risky love. There's a time for extravagant gestures. There's a time to pour affections on one you love. And when the time comes...seize it, don't miss it!
P.S.
Don't be weary in prayer, keep at it; watch for God's answers and remember to be thankful when they come! (Colossians 4:2)
You fill in the Blank...
Never feeling so special, so loved, so cared for. Always falling into a deep...I never thought I could find someone, better yet them come to Me so thoughtful, and considerate. To make me feel like the Ruby the jewel the Crystal that I am. He now lays in front and close to my heart. I'm afraid to let him near it, I dont want to feel hurt, pain, broken...wearing my heart on my sleeve...what I dfefinitely used to do. But definitely learned a lesson from. He's type of person, that would catch my eye from afar in a quick second. But all I could and would possibly do is smile, which I just know he loves. He makes me weak to the knees, he's my weakness, but i'm so strong! But then again he's the only one who can...Yeah maybe i'll just keep that to me, myself, and I. The way he touches me...holds me...hugs me...kisses me...all I can do is...This Crystal is falling in...You fill in the Blank...
Be careful of your company
Living truthfully to myself, loving myself not needing anyone else.
Why must I feel a burden in my life because of a lost that only benefits me in the long run. That benefits me now in the present
feeling disappointment, sadness, weakness...waste of time...right?
But yet the "thing" is still in my mind, thoughts, heart...no never mind that...
This "thing" could be anything...you fill in the blank. But now my heart aches, I promised myself not to wear my heart on my sleeve, and of course I didn..t...I've already learned my lesson from before. I believe I put my own self, in this this challenging position, and yet the company I was with wasn..t wise at all...!!!
True, I know that God says, He who walks with the wise grows wise...But the companion of fools suffer harm...Jesus...only a fool responds to a fool. I believe somewhere in this whole thing I suffered a whole lot of harm! Being with "that certain company" I was definitely a fool! I obviously Thank God I was not the treasure that "company" desired. Because for what..s it's worth where your treasure is your heart will be also...and when it all comes down to it...As a Christian...Standards don't keep me from having fun...they keep me from REGRET!!!!
Why must I feel a burden in my life because of a lost that only benefits me in the long run. That benefits me now in the present
feeling disappointment, sadness, weakness...waste of time...right?
But yet the "thing" is still in my mind, thoughts, heart...no never mind that...
This "thing" could be anything...you fill in the blank. But now my heart aches, I promised myself not to wear my heart on my sleeve, and of course I didn..t...I've already learned my lesson from before. I believe I put my own self, in this this challenging position, and yet the company I was with wasn..t wise at all...!!!
True, I know that God says, He who walks with the wise grows wise...But the companion of fools suffer harm...Jesus...only a fool responds to a fool. I believe somewhere in this whole thing I suffered a whole lot of harm! Being with "that certain company" I was definitely a fool! I obviously Thank God I was not the treasure that "company" desired. Because for what..s it's worth where your treasure is your heart will be also...and when it all comes down to it...As a Christian...Standards don't keep me from having fun...they keep me from REGRET!!!!
Do you find AMUSING what God Finds DISGUSTING!?
Sin Will Take you further, then you want to go...keep you you longer then you want to stay, and cost you more then you want to pay...Do you really want to take that chance? The Right people plus the right place equals the right thing! The flip side to that is that the wrong people plus the wrong place equals the wrong thing! You are what you eat, you are the people you hang out with believe it or not...It's true Do you find AMUSING what God Finds DISGUSTING...ask yourself that, last night at the Remnant (Youth Hang out spot lol) A lot of things became very clear to me, I let a lot of things go, and realized that I had a whole lot of stuff going with me personally that was bringing down to a hurtful, mean, rude, un lady like level, and that just isn't me...at all!!!! It's true what Devin (youth leader/Big Brotha in Christ) said, "Fill your tank up with the Right fuel..." Last night was amazing...thats all I can say!!!!
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