My Thoughts...

Feeling so many different things right now
at the moment im not sure what to think
what to do or even to believe it or not what to say

Have you ever wanted something so bad
knowing that your close to getting it
but yet everything feels so close to an end
because of a small but yet so huge issue
that you absolutely have no control of
but yet you still want that certain thing
so bad not exactly knowing why...
but you just do...

Have you ever wanted to give up someone
because of a situation that you suppose
wasnt so much of a heart break, but yet
broke into several different parts...

Have you ever felt as though you were
involved with someone...
but yet you really werent sure if you were involved or not
but your not really sure if that person
is ready to even think of getting into something new...something serious...
or is it me...am I moving to fast...to slow...or exactly at the right pace...
feeling as though im in a race against myself...
that, not really making since at all
in my mind
just speaking of that...him...lately always being on my mind
his smell...touch...his hug...his angelic kiss against my oh so lovely lips
i want him now next to me
so that we can stay close
so that he can grow a sincere true connection
to my God fearing heart
never feeling this way before...
there's just something about him...not sure what it is...
it feels so right...but...
am i moving to fast...